I need a new shoes.

Oh, how i wish i could be part of them. (This doesnt mean anything to this post XD)

There are only two conclusions I've made recently- either I'm weird, or people are confused.
I think it's the former, really. Many people say I'm one of the most mature people they've ever met. Apparently they can hear maturity in my voice.
*Thank you for that (: * Though i think my voice sounds freakish.

Many people who know me well say I'm a child inside and outside and in every bit of my voice and I'll never grow up. But sometimes I could be the most sensitive person in the world and somehow I could be very fierce at times.
I'll admit, I'm petrified that they could be right.

Yeah serious, maybe its hard to see me crying but the fact is I always did. Andd, if you think im that soft or what, I fought with boys. I got a record of punching a boy right on his face when i was only in primary school. And when in secondary school, I once got banned from a group of boys. Me and my friends. Quite a number of us. The boys called us "tyco" without us noticing. And we never really care. Because, we just do what we wanted to and for the sake that we did not interrupt their life, so why should they? Right then we just pretend that the boys were never exist and I told them they were childish much. It was fun though.

And, I did have a crush - not important . yeah

See, I love being a kid. Thinking about the future, about what I want to do or be was always reserved for my wildest dreams, my ambitious spurts, my If only. You know like what you always did when you were child, or even now, like - If only I could own that, If only I could marry him, If only I could taste that-and so on.

I thought about it all the time. I dreamt about things all the time. I always wanted to have things I like. Not considering the price or whatsoever.
But I never imagined them happening and I probably never really worked for them. What I want, is what I get. Which, I think is very immature and bad attid. Gosh, I really have to change that.

I'll say that this year has changed me in ways that I can't understand and kept me the same in ways I'm surprised about. The beginning for 2011 taught me a lot. For one, I've been subjected to experiences that really got me introspecting beyond what I wanted to do next month or what I felt like eating that day. I can't really elaborate. You can just explain it to yourself if youre close to me.

For another, people around me have unexpectedly played a scarily huge role in promoting me to first standard mentally, I suppose. Yeah, for instance example, my friends. Think about that.

Now wipe that look on your face! Haha I dont know what got me into this. I mean, those "craps" above. Anyway, thanks for reading.