happy birthday,ayah!

its 12 am peopleeeee, 1st of December.yes yes yes and its ayah's birthdayyy.HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAAAAAH! :D I LOVE YOUUU!

oh btw,here's something for you,i thought it was simple at first place but with second thought,what actually matter is my intention to give this heart-loving poem especially for you(: ;

Dad, you’re like the sun to me,
a sure thing, always there,
beaming light and warmth on my life.
Whatever is good in me today,
I owe to your wisdom, your patience,
your strength, your love.
You taught me by example,
as a role model,
how to be my own person,
how to believe in myself,
instructing me without controlling me.
Even when we disagreed,
you held us together,
so our bond was never broken.
I understand what you did for me,
and I am so grateful that I have you
as my solid foundation, my rock.
I respect you, I admire you, I love you,
my guiding light, my father.


FOREVER AND ALWAYS(:

screwed up

what would you feel if your mother suddenly scold you when obviously its not your fault? what would you feel when you secretly knew that your bestfriend backstabbed you so badly? what would you feel when your boyfriend leaves you because the state of reason that you were such a lame?


and


what would you feel if nobody ever wanted to believe in you?



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okay enuff,its not happening to me actually.but i guess that what i feel right now is likely to be the same as if someone is having one of those situation above.its when you're having some kinda problem where you actually have to solve it by yourself,no one is there to reach out for you,no one is there to help you,to give you such hope.such faith.such a strong believe that every human being stands in this damn world probably needs to have.to have feelings.to have opinions.self-evidence.nobody.neither your friends nor your parents.

-uhhhh i dont really feel like talking right now.

i know its wayy too useless writing it all down here.you sure wouldnt understand wht the hell am i saying aite.guess it'll make me feel better ; not at all.

im tiredd, tooo tired to feel so numb.

with mucchh crippled anger and tears tht drip sore T.T'.im serious mannn,ive been crying all day.if you could only kneww..the only anesthetic tht makes me feel anything,reallly kills insidee.damn it

hit the button

okayyyy today probably gonna be sooooo boring.yess when i say its boring.damn its boring.ibu got work to do soo we're nt going anywhere.till idk wht else to type.o yeah, i bought a novel ystrday.well its from "a little black dress" books.have i mentioned tht i have loadssss of little black dress book collections? ahah yes now you know.i kinda like all of 'em.thus not many of em are love stories.its more to real lifee,life problemmss and socials.this time i bought "Pick Me Up".hope its not gonna set me down.

and btw,ibu said we're goin back to kampung this nite or maybe tomorrow.yeahh

well so far, this is my To-Do lists( they are wayyyyy waiting for mehh) ;

*new moon =DD cant wait!
*a theatre at istana budaya
*a NST Public Speaking programme ( im not sure abt it)

huhhhhh for the public speaking thiinggyy,i hvent confirmed it yet.my mum actually signed me up for tht.shes the one who really want me to join tht nerdy box.umm but im not blaming her for tht,i know its also for my own good plus she wants her daughter to be practically good at tht.i knowwwww i knowwwww. btw,the programme gonna be held at 2/3 dis which means next week! huhhhh ==' hope its not really burdenin me.

andand my dad says i should start studying for PMR starting from now on ; err?

dewi balqis's

Gonna be asked unique questions, you ready?
Yes,ma'am.

Lip piercings on both sides of your bottom lip, disgusting right?
euw yes!

Where is the person who has your heart?
siapa makan cili,terasa pedasnya =P

What do you hear?
my blog's song.

Congratulations​,​​​ you just had a baby boy! What's his name?
liyana knows ;p why dont you ask her.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
yes but i love them.

What are you craving at the moment?
chocolate milkshake please.

Have a best friend?
i think i have loadsss.

What are you doing?
texting and typing,doing this thingg.duhh~

When is the last time you cried?
4 days back at school.

Do you like horror or comedy?
both.sometimes its fun to combine both of 'em

Are you in a complicated relationship?
nope.its very clear fer me.thankyou(:

Who was the last person you said I love you to?
him

Seven months ago you remember who you liked?
yes.fresh in my mine dudeee

Are you looking forward to anything?
yes,tomorrow's theatreeee(: and new moon.

What's your favorite thing to do in the summer time?
hangout,friends!

Do you remember who you liked on New Year's?
yessy

Do you like hugs or do you freak out when people hug you?
i lovee hugs

Do you laugh a lot?
duhh~ i cannot live without it.

What would your dream life be like?
i can get evrything i want and erase my wrongdo.but wait.if tht happens,life must be so unfair to other ppl aite.so be it.i take it as i live it.

Do you like silver or gold better?
silverr.im not soo into gold

Do you know anyone who smokes pot?
no, and i dont want to.please

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
no lah.wht for

Would you consider yourself open-minded?
ahaaaa.yes?


Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Yes =)

Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex?
Dark.

Do you care too much or not at all?
it depends

Do you think you would make a good parent someday?
you think?

Are you wearing anything that doesn't belong to you?
nope its all mine,babehhh

Do you hate when people call you when you're sleeping?
depends on the people lahh(:

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
yes,loadssss are running on the list.ahaa

What woke you up this morning?
his message.wink wink*

Where were you an hour ago?
my aunt's house?

Are you mad at someone right now?
nopee

Do you miss your past?
quite

What was the last drink you had?
tropicana twister ; orange

Would you rather spend a day outside with friends or inside alone?
ofc outside you fool.

Is there someone who can ALWAYS make you smile?
yesyesyes!

Do you get along with EVERYONE in your family?
yupp

Why do you and your best friend fight?
sometimes,misunderstandings lahh.common things(: but then we get back together again.sekejap jea.

Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone?
evrytimeeee

hold your heart

just came back from my aunt's house at shah alam.had a night there since my mum said its too late to drive yesterday.now planning to go klcc,but evrybody ws like.not going.ibu still lipat baju.aisyah is still on bed,nami playing outside and me as usual,onlining.phone hbis batt.


andand, had a nice chat with farid haziq last night.he's a form 1 student at my school.oh yes he's nice,fun and easy to get along with.we texted until late night,i guess.till i felt asleep.duhh ='

no scandal okay.haha!

farid,see,i uphold you on my blog,proud enuff? wink wink* haha.

something to share ;

She can't see the way your eyes
Light up when you smile
She'll never notice how you stop and stare
Whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wantin' you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable

Instead I'm just invisible



There's a fire inside of you
That can't help but shine through
She's never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be



And I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable

Instead I'm just invisible



Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we're invisible
I just wanna open your eyes
And make you realize

I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
Baby let me love you let me want you
You just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable

Instead I'm just invisible

pointless point

meet again!its 12 noon already but i still havent got my breakfast yet plus i didnt even had my morning bath.just came back frm semashur ystrday.we went to klcc b4 going back home, for lunch.then reached home at 3 pm.damn tired.had my bath,unpack all those things then straightly went to bed and slept until he texted me ;P then we chat,chat,chat until 2 am, then finally i got to rest and wish to have an endless night.fuuuhh then end up woke up late.haha

these 2 people ;

hey,notice anything? haha yeah yeah this is Tuan Hassanal actually,met him at Kem Lencana Kemajuan Pengakap tht ws held just around my school past few days.evrybody thought we're siblings. wink* eyw! xP




meet Teh(: she's nice,cute and friendly.i love being friend with her throughout the camp.sure he knows quite a lot about pengakap and all those things.looking forward to meet her again :D

starstrukk

its monday and im still at putrajaya.believe it? haha! coming back to school one day late from others.to my friends; you're just jealous.HAHA but anyway, i will be coming back this evening.so dont miss me too much guys xP before tht,im goin to alamanda to get some things ; aluminium foil,some plasticine,ballons and i dont really remember.nadia texted me just now to buy those things.man it gonna costs me a lot.soooooo zul have to pay me back for tht.i dont care wht way he gonna get those freakingg cash.i tot our class is short of money but who the hell cares.

starstrukk

its monday and im still at putrajaya.believe it? haha! coming back to school one day late from others.to my friends; you're just jealous.HAHA but anyway, i will be coming back this evening.so dont miss me too much guys xP before tht,im goin to alamanda to get some things ; aluminium foil,some plasticine,ballons and i dont really remember.nadia texted me just now to buy those things.man it gonna costs me a lot.soooooo zul have to pay me back for tht.i dont care wht way he gonna get those freakingg cash.i tot our class is short of money but who the hell cares.

anti-dandruff

geesh,been sooo long since i last typed in this blog.actually theres loads to tell, but i dont have much time,going back to kampung tonite soo maybe later(;

fly*